Ready...

Wow! I cannot believe I am 35 weeks pregnant! You see, if you don't already know, my husband and I shouldn't have been able to have anymore children. We had seen to that. But, after feeling it on our hearts for quite some time, we could not ignore  it anymore. Oh, but we tried! We were so scared (and still are) for nearly two years that we simply ignored what God was placing on both of our hearts. And, when we could deny it no longer, we finally gave in to His will...

Once we gave in, it happened quite quickly. Everything fell into place as it often does with us and we were on our way to some huge changes in this family.

And here we are. The baby bed is set up near my bed. The swing is up by a window in the living room. The car seat is ready by the door. Diapers are bought, clothes and blankets are washed. We are ready...I hope.

Still feeling terrified at times, excited for my new baby boy, and completely overwhelmed by both the changes this little baby will bring and the love I already feel for him, I am as prepared as I can be.

I am so blessed. I have 2 amazing children who both challenge and astonish me daily; a husband who works so hard to make sure we are taken care of and provided for. My Father in heaven lightens my load when I come to His feet. I have an amazing friend who will see me through the birthing process (which, I must confess, is absolutely terrifying to me this time around!!), and who answers my crazy questions, listens to my ramblings and supports me in every way. I have church family who is very excited for me!! My mom can't wait to be a Grandma again! And, although I know there are challenges coming, and my life will never be the same, I can look forward to the future knowing that it is going to be ok. No matter what.

My belly feels so full that I feel like I might explode! And, sleeping is becoming less and less due to the back pain crippling me. I feel ready. My daughter cried tonight when she asked if the baby was coming tomorrow and I told her "no". But, I think she was just over tired  ;)  But, everyone is feeling pretty "ready" around here. Dad is preparing to take time off of work for an extended period of time, and I am so thankful for that. Schooling two children and caring for our new addition will be much easier with an extra set of hands, feet, ears, eyes; a whisper in the night, a shoulder to lean on, arms to run into...I am blessed.

If this little one is like my other two, I am looking at only 4 weeks until he joins our family...eek! I still can't believe this is happening. I truly never thought this possible. But, God is in the business of making the impossible, possible. And, I am so glad He is...