Healing

A few months ago I had an experience that left me heart broken. I was hurt so badly that I thought my life would never be the same again. And, it wasn't. I am not saying that like it is a bad thing. Although, at the time I thought it would change for the worse. I have been damaged in my past, but this seemed far worse than anything I had experienced because of where it came from. I was shattered. But, they say time heals. Maybe that is true...I don't know. But, nonetheless, I moved forward with hope. But, you know how sometimes you think you've moved on only to be faced with the less than perfect truth when you least expect it? Boy, I hate that. I think I am still bitter...angry...hurt. Afterall, I am human. I could tell myself that I don't care what people think. But, I would be lying (unfortunately). But, I do want to care more about what the Lord thinks of me. I need help in this area, among many.  By His grace I have been able to begin healing. And, He has sent some great people to help with that. But, when I am face to face with those who have hurt me, why do I still feel that lump in my throat? Will it ever go away? I don't want to have a hardened heart. I need to overcome this. Life can be so cruel. I am thankful I have a God who is full of mercy, abounding with love, and forgives me even though I do not deserve it.