Oh, Lord, Hear my prayer

Life is tough. Insecurity reared its ugly head today, and my heart sank. I tell myself, "you're a big girl. You can handle it". And, I can. Handle "it", that is. But, why does it have to hurt so much? I thought this kind of drama was reserved for high school hallways and cheerleader practice. I thought I was all grown up. I thought I belonged to the body of Christ. Yes, I DID just say that. But, nobody is perfect. ALL have sinned, and ALL fall short. Some days I am reminded of that more than others. And, I am certainly no exception. But, I just wished that the church body (and by that, I mean Christians) would be the exception. Like, if we would all just be united-set apart for the glory of our Father. I wish we could all live in harmony. Love one another. Isn't that what we are supposed to be doing, after all? How can we share the love of God with a hurting world, then turn around and hurt our brother? How can we preach unity when we are divided amongst ourselves? How can we do this to eachother? I just don't get it.

Lord, I need You...