True Friends

Ok, so the truth is I have struggled with friendships. Maybe there is something wrong with me. Probably. Whether it is because I am afraid there is something wrong with me-a reason people won't like me-or because there is infact something about me to not like...hmmm...whatever the case, sometimes I think I try too hard. I want a friend that loves ME for who I am. And, I am not always lovable. Someone who appreciates who God has made me. I have always wanted a close (girl)friend; a sister. Someone who I can laugh with, cry with. Someone who knows my secrets. And, yes, I do have them. I never really had that in someone. I always thought it was because I was unlikable. But, now I am wondering if it is because I had too many insecurities. I am finally being me, and it feels great. I know it should not have taken me 29 years to figure that out. But, it did! Maybe I always knew deep down, but I just couldn't be me. Too afraid to show the world who I was because I believed who I am isn`t good enough. I`ve lost friends. But, I also believe that true friendship can make it through rough patches. So, I guess it wasn`t ``meant to be``. The Bible says there is a freind that sticks closer than a brother (Proverbs 18:24). I am sure there are many meanings here. But certainly this describes a true friend. Someone once told me that God had someone like this for me; that God had someone that would appreciate the very things in me that I was so afraid to let show. I sure hope he was right...